| im horribel havnt posted 4 a month and a half STFU ive been bust on myspace and gaia www.myspace.com/linzyfish23 gaia usernames are Vampire_Nami Drunky_Fishy amore di anima email me at aol linzyfish23 yahoo drunky_fishy kks thankies |
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| ok ok im a slut. i have only two friends that are girls. one is bi, the other is a churchgirl prude. im bi. i would make out with them both in a heart beat. they dont know that. shhhhh. i like a boy named charlie. i like another boy named brent. another named justin. jake. erik. alan. david n. david b. eric. blake. mitchell. corey. bob. geoff. matt. and more.... i cant make up my mind. half of them wont talk to me cuz im a slut. the other half only talk to me cuz im a slut. i will never win. i can deal with that. by cutting. i am a cutter. my mom knows. my dad doesnt. my mom is gonna tell him. he will yell at me. i will cut more cuz he yelled at me. my mom will find out. she will tell my dad. he will yell at me. i will cut more. do u see the cycle forming. my parents are almost divorced. my dad cheated on my mom for 13 years. im 14. do u see y i would b mad? he doesnt kno that i kno. hes not gonna. hes not a very nice person. he has a girlfriend. my mom has a boyfriend. they say im lucky cuz i have 4 parents who love me. i wanna shoot myself cuz i have 4 parents to yell at me. more cutting. i live in a big house. i wanna move. i would get to go shopping then. lets move to south carolina. i like it there. i hate it here. im goin to college in south carolina. my parents cant afford it. they want me to go to college here. HELL NO. they kno that i wont. its south caroline or no college. i know what they will choose. i miss my friends. they held me together 4 so long. im dieing quickly now. they know that a bit. my best friend is moving in 3 weeks. my other best friend is moving in 1 year. i'll be dead by then. i hate my life. my mom knows it somehow. its a mother thing. dont ask. im fat. my mom called me fat. fuckin whore. she begs me to tell her why i cut but i cant. if i tell her shes the reason. she will say i jus want attention or something. i am fat though. i want to be anorexic so bad.. i have to will power. it will never work. nomatter what. i love chocolate. im fat. maybe i will finally do it this summer. become anorexic. i can only hope. i had cheesecake for dessert. i feel fat. i am fat. what are you loookin at ho? im fat. deal wit it. i cut. it helps. if i cut enough. i mite lose 1 pound. we can only hope. i hate hope. its a useless feeling. it lets u down everyday. people thinks its the greatest thing in the owrld. hope. ficking drunk idiots. im going insane over here. they still have their hope. im done rambling now. for the most part i have told u a lot of shit i cant and wont tell my mom no matter how much she begs.wish my luck(another useless feeling). |
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